Sorry

I'm mortified. I just said something and upset someone and I'm so upset.
Fecking pathetic stupid cow I am. I didn't go see the psychiatrist because I wasn't up to playing his head games. I got enough of my own.
Anyways. For the record. I am really nice really... honest I am. And if I EVER do anything to upset anyone, I really didn't mean it.
Fecking, head, drugs, doctors, life.
I'm going to bed to cry for an hour and get it out my system

"Can't explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am".