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I'm sad. I accidentally deleted all my emails from Hotmail. Stuff I've had on there for the past 18 months. I even bought my address so I had more space to keep them. Some of them were gems that I had from people I love. It's not that I ever reread them or anything but they were there. Now hotmail is empty. And I feel weird. Like part of my life has been erased. Is that silly?
Maybe looking back on parts of last year it's for the best. Still don't like it though.