Tuesday!!

Hello
Well I now know what the feck was wrong with me yesterday (women's probs! Say no more) scary though how it can affect me so profoundly and I have no control. To be honest though, some women do stupid things and get violent and impulsive. I just cried a lot into my pillow. Made myself puffy and tired today. But I carried on and everything was fine. My tooth is 100% better (should have gone to the dentist weeks ago) and I'm calm.
Though for some reason I truly was so sad yesterday. I just re-read an email I sent to someone and I cried reading it as when I wrote it I was in such a sorry state.
Work was dead quiet today, our receptionist gave in her notice. We aren't sad. Actually I like her but she really isn't the right person for the job. We aren't lucky with receptionists. We've had four. The first one was still asking how to open the door 6 months on and eventually left kinda on long term sick, the next one we nickname smeagal. A funny little woman who went to some cult Christian church. She wore the same floral skirt and stained blouse all week and was verrrrrrrry slow. But the worse bit was the flatulence. She was a strict vegetarian with lots of food allergies. Too many beans. She'd just let rip anywhere. In front of consultants, parents, managers, in the staff room, bending down to get notes out the drawer. Eventually she admitted she had no sense of smell but we did. Luckily she was temporary. Then there was the crazy one. She'd had to leave her high powered job because of her unstable personality. So we employed her! She was ok for a few weeks then she got anxious and moody. Then this progressed to downright crazy volatile behaviour and eventually she packed her desk and walked out. Then this present one whose sweet and kinda normal but still after 7 months hasn't grasped very much of anything. Thing is, it isn't exactly rocket science, and I can do it quicker myself.
I took Rainbow Guides tonight. We made people biscuits...With different shaped biscuits for the head, body and limbs etc. We're all a bit worried because they've started a new program for the girls. A program that costs money!! But saying that it is very well made and looks lots of fun. The new uniform is so cute. We had our first child wearing it tonight and she looked gorgeous. Well apart for her trousers far too big and falling down round her knees when she ran. Bless.
Marie rang me and we maybe going to London Overnight one day in December. Christmas shopping and seeing the lights! There suddenly I got a few things to look forward to.
I just have to have a quick rant about Holby city tonight. What a lot of crap. What worries me is that the general public will believe that these things actually happen in hospitals. That woman having the baby with the heart problem. No way would that have happened. That is an unspecialised city general hospital. A diagnosis would be made with a very complex scanner in a specialist centre. Grrr I Hate that programme.
Thanks Clarrie and Stephen for your lovely comments to me. Made me feel warm and loved xxx