Trin Date?

What on earth was I thinking?
I joined an online Dating thingy this afternoon. Always headstrong and having to make my own mistakes...off I go.It was one with a free 24 hour service so you can see what it's like.
So I joined. I was honest and even posted a small picture of myself. Then I started to look through the lists of men looking for 'love' 'fun' 'whatever'. I saw a few men that caught my eye. Not because they were particularly good looking but, just something about them. But as I trawled through them all, I began to worry. Why was I doing this? Was this really for me or what I thought was expected of me? I'm still not 100% ok on my own and I firmly believe that you need to discover and be happy with yourself before you can be part of a relationship.
That's where so many marriages go wrong. A desperation in the beginning not to be left single. That was my problem with my Ex. I always knew he wasn't my type but I grew to love him. I've got a very enquiring and fickle mind that bores easily. I need something new, different or to be really good at it. That's why nursing suits me. I learn something new every single day. Because all kids are such individuals.
So back to this online dating. There was one guy who said he was 55 but looked about 65. He liked country and western music and was a 'one-woman man' Dull! quite unbelievably dull. I don't think I'd have got many hits anyways.I placed my fidelity rating as quite low. The looks of some of those and I'd have been off like a shot.
Oh well failing 'Denis from Anatomy' knocking on my door tomorrow (hands off spaceminxy) I better stay single.
For now. Until another day.