Sorry

For anyone reading this blog last night. I just want to say sorry.
Ok excuses. My reduction of the frankly evil venlafaxine is taking it's toll. I've gone down by 2/3 now. I've been up at 2am every night vomiting. Not even sure if I've kept any of it down.
I've also started these damn hormone tablets and I'm so bloody randy. I even bought a hat from that Cheeky boy website to access the unzipped section. FFS! The joys of being a woman.
But yesterday, was a wild and weird day. I thought I was ok, but seeing as I stayed in bed till 2pm... I guess the evaluation of my general mental health was misjudged to say the least.
I was high. I knew it. I was loud and nuts at the hair dressers. I was taking pictures of myself and sending them to people? Me? I think I'm the ugliest person in history. Then we went to the BBQ and I was OTT. Then a misunderstanding brought me back to earth with a huge crash and there spiked the enormous low. A low to the point of wanting to end it all. Now none of it was anyone's fault. It could have been anything that spiked the low. A high is always followed by the low. It's the joys of being bi-polar.
Can you completely understand why I alienate people against me?, why I live alone?, why I see a shrink?
Anyways. All over, I feel a bit battered today (like a nice piece of cod)
Thanks for your comments and for being patient. I did warn you a while back there may be some unstableness approaching.
Hugs
Tx