I am feeling terribly insecure about letting Danz go on camp tomorrow. I'm really feeling quite ill about it. Can't work out why I'm feeling so awful. She's really excited but I'd rather she stayed home and close to me. I'm trying to quell the rising panic. Think I'll go to bed and sleep. I'm going to sleep with her. Got no choice since the bed broke. Wish I was more independent and knew how to use a drill and mend stuff. I dunno. Life's so fecking shit sometimes.