Saturday

Not feeling so great today. Dunno why really but I think this week I've HAD to do stuff every day. That's stopped me from thinking or being down. But it's all been a strain and today I'm tired.
It's as if my mind gets tired from concentrating so hard at being normal. Sound crazy? Well hey, that's what living as Trin is all about.
I'm reading The Illustrated Mum. I saw the TV series of it last week and it made for uncomfortable viewing. The mum, Marigold, is Bi-Polar and needs help. But her kids love her to bits and don't want to ask for help in case she's put in hospital and them taken away. But their lives are very difficult. She's obsessed with a man called Micky and obsessed with getting tattoos. Both my girls have read it. There's quite a few similarities between our lives and the book, though Marigold is very manic and these days I seem to be mostly depressed.
I'm still quite ashamed and tainted by the fact that I can't cope like everyone else does. I need to take pills and have times when I'm downright irrational. But I've come an awful long way.
Anyways my friend says Normal is dull.