Funny old week. I'm really tired. Think it might be the weather or something. I did up my meds which may have accounted for some of it. But in my own head, I've decided to stop harping on about stuff and try to move forward.
Still worried about money. The car's gone in for the brakes today. I had to drop it at 8am and walk back in the rain. My friend offered to lend me the money to pay for it but it's a huge mount of money almost 50 quid and I'm fretting about it.
I feel quite the failure at not being able to manage without external help. I don't even like asking the family for help. It makes me vulnerable and loses control.
I was hoping the car accident money would come in soon but the other party have refused to admit liability saying my brake lights weren't working. How they can say that amazes me. I was stopped still on the roundabout and he ploughed into my rear with such force that it pushed me into the path of the oncoming cars. I could have died (drama queens rulez ok) and my hip was very painful for a long time. It's only recently stopped being a nuisance.
The insurance had only claimed for a grand anyways... Hardly the multi-million pound compensation claim. Horrid people. That accident caused me misery for quite some months.
Heck, I couldn't vacuum for ages..... The horror of floors with bits on them.
I got the psycho-therapy woman today... The one I have to PAY for. Ok so it's only a fiver but it still grates slightly. She's going to assess me. Deep Joy. Yet another person for me to tell my pathetic life history to.
Another thing that has got me annoyed with myself recently... Is my ability to be annoyed with people whose lives seem better than mine. Or have more money to do stuff like go on Holiday or have treats or nice houses. In the back of my mind I think I've worked hard and why can't my life be as nice as theirs?
But that's so unfair. We're all individual and what will be will be.
And whose to say they are really happy anyways?
But when someone tells me something about them that I deem to be lovely I get this bristling feeling and thoughts of being nasty curse through my head.
"BITCH BITCH", I yell at my thoughts... Stop doing that. I bet they haven't got a lovely cat flap like you have.
Yeah right.
I need more sleep.
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Hi Trin
I do have a nice house, but no cat flap (but then I don't have a cat - so what would be the point?) I used to earn more than I do now, and I've just applied for a job that's £8k less. What makes me happy are:
- my partner in crime
- my kids
- my mates
- our blog
- friends we've made via blogging (that's you)
- getting drunk
- shite TV
- oh, I could go on for ages
Your garden looked like a great source of happiness - shame about the winter. I think there's a lot to be said for this seasonal affective disorder thingamyjiggle myself.
Anyway, treat yourself to a new toy from that site Andy mentioned. They really are fab (best say no more about that) ;)
If you get shunted up the rear (fnarr) you should win any legal arguments by default, brake lights or no it's the driver behind's responsibility to keep a safe distance in case of emergency stops. For example, if you had hit something in front and come to a halt, your brake lights wouldn't even have been used, any car behind you would still be liable for hitting you because they didn't allow enough room for an emergency stop. A win is on the cards.
I think I'll tell them that Asmo
That was a well wikd web site Donna! A woman (and man) after my own heart... no wait Crash isn't after my heart....
when the sodding verification code is a merged VW which is it? VW OR WV. I got it wrong... gits.
I feel you HORRID ladies are talking about DEPRAVED things again. Blushes and retires bashfully.
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