Ok one of those posts. I haven't done one in a while. I spoke to a good friend today who kept saying I was so much better and so much happier than he'd ever known me.He's right.
Tonight, however, I find myself alone for the first time in ages. Abby has actually gone out to a party and Danz is staying with her Grandparents. So here I am all alone. I'm not sure what to do with myself. I'm a bit miserable.
It's been a a very difficult month. But it's all over so why do I still feel ill with it all and headachy all the time? Post stress fever? A bit like Saturday night fever but without John Travolta doing the splits.
I always feel so much better writing stuff here for you.
You know, I don't owe any money to anyone. I've paid my rent, council tax, all the other household bill crap stuff. My car has been taxed this month. And I still have some money to live on for the month. I have a lovely boyfriend who's kind, patient and understanding (and I think he loves me) Abby is sorted out for college and Danz seems happy.
Bailey is still a pain and is at this very moment ripping the material from the settee..... But oh well!
Hmmm life is good.... Remind me why was I feeling down?
feckin chemical imbalances in the feckin brain. Feckers. Life can be sweet as a sweet thing (viewed from outside) and still be a dark and nasty place (viewed from the inside). Having sh*t things going on in your life makes bad head days worse, natch, but having everything going 'right' doesn't mean they won't happen.
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A good note of caution from Clarrie.. things are great now (amazingly great :-) *hugs*).. but there WILL be the occasional bump, a hiccup, a glitch... just keep the perspective :-) remember that a hiccup is a hiccup. You're doing fantastic and I'm not just proud of you, I'm happy for you too.
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